Visual Novel Arts


Best way to focus on writing on your art with NC headphone and a 2 in 1 tablet

Using Noise cancelling headphones to focus on art and writing after 4 months - SONY WH1000X M3

I live in a noisy apartment complex, a lot of people moving in and out, using tools to ‘’re-invent’’ their living rooms. Their friendliness of being busy during the evening and weekends put me to action to look into Noise Cancelling headphones, so I decided to check which one is the best. Well there are a lot out there, however some seemed to be crème a la creme – so I checked some reviews because I was getting crazy of the drilling and hammering of whatever apartment that surrounds me.

I focused on 3 things: best noise cancellation, best comfort and best battery life – I wanted a headphone which I can use for a long session without being disturbed. So it came down to the SONY WH1000X M3. And the moment I got it was also one of many moments there was a lot of noise, so perfect opportunity to test it… wow this thing worked. It reduced the sound 50-60%, however it is important to put some music on as then you really don’t notice your surroundings any more. The battery life is 25-30 hours, and I it sits godlike (which was one of my main concerns) even when I put glasses on! Btw it gave me a new level of appreciation for music (but enough headphones do this I think, I am not a headphone user prior to this). At one moment I was like ‘’did they stop?’’ put off my headphones and that was clearly not the case haha~

Do yourself a favour if you can relate to this and don’t want to hear unnecessary sound and be disturbed by external factors when you want to focus on writing, unless you are surrounded by mother nature herself ;P. (its also good way to focus in library’s or during travels etc)

BTW for those interested: I have a 3-minute review video on this on YT where I give a sound sample comparison for the noise cancellation to give an idea.

Which tablet do you use? I used a surface pro 6 for a year and this is what I think of it.

I always used a Wacom, one where you look at the screen and drew on a separate drawing tablet. Well I now a year ago I decided to buy a tabled where I can just draw on the screen and see immediate results. However I wanted something with low drawing lag, generally fast and something where I can type on. SO the ipad pro and surface pro came to mind. The main thing what sold me was the fact that the surface had more generally utility, its more laptop/tablet hybrid then a pure tablet like the pro (which was a great recommendation for artist). Anyways this things utility is a beast one of the best buys I ever did. Drawing pen is nice, and magnetically sticks to the surface, it draws w/o noticible lag, the pern point is soft and doesn’t scratch the screen (even after 1 year), the battery life is fine 8-10hrs. This thing helped me a lot to develop my art and digital skills (which were really bad on the Wacom), There are plenty of apps out there to use for drawing (photshop, autodesk, krita etc but I use sketchable(a simple drawing tool)). I brought it on me on vacation, during the plane to Japan(ok not recommended to draw there, unless your on the airport) and use it 1-2 full charges per week at home. The screen can be put in a lot of angles and its not heavy so I love to put it on my lap with a pillow in between. You can use double scree by dragging something to side as well.

BTW for those interested: I have a quick review on this of 4-5? Min to give an idea.

Final Fantasy and Metal Gear Solid video game art book reviews

Best Video game art books: Art of Metal Gear solid collection, two book showing concept art and full blown illustrations of MGS.

General: There are two books in this collection, Studio works and Gallery Works. Both contain awesome illustrations of Yoji Shinkawa, known for drawing dark shadows with his black ink pen, to create whole characters. Both Books are extreme high quality, hardcover and thick paper. Next to that, both books are quite heavy (Publisher Dark Horse) Amazon affiliate links to other peoples reviews and to learn more.

Studio Works: Mainly the concept art, thus black and white illustrations. The content is divided over metal gear solid 1 till four. Where MGS 1 has 72 pages, MGS 2 has 80 pages, MGS 3 has 62, MGS 4 has 112 pages and as bonus MGS peace walker 53 pages.

Gallery Works: Shows the Color illustrations, and non concept art. The content is divided over metal gear solid 1 till four. Where MGS 1 has 88 pages, MGS 2 has 76 pages, MGS 3 has 84, MGS 4 has 76 pages and as bonus MGS peace walker 95 pages.

So For who is this book -> let's assume at least you like MGS...

General book lover: This book is really awesome, honestly you can't go wrong. The art is outstanding and there is A LOT IN IT, But please note.. if you don't like Yoji shinkawa's art in particular this book is not for you as he is the MGS artist... period.

Hardcore MGS FAN: Well.... For the normal fan maybe No, for the hardcore fan yes.

For the artist (writer/drawing): Its hard to say. I get inspiration of the art, even though the theme is not necessarily my thing. If the theme (military/espionage) is your thing, then its a no brainier.

I played the first game as a kid, so yeah.. I like the franchise, please take that in to you consideration when buying. If you checked Joyi Shinkawa's art though - and you like it - this one is just full of it.

Ultimania archive series, a delight for the Final fantasy (RPG) lover.

General: All books are High quality, contain extra information on the game (so not only pure art) and contain a lot of extra details on the development/character relations/developers info.

Book 1: This one has 6 main titles covered with each their own sections. To elaborate the book is 336 pages, where final fantasy 1 has roughly 30 pages, FF2 50, FF3 45, FF4 60, FF5 55 and FF6 the most with almost 75 pages. Check out other peoples opinion to learn more.

Book 2: the book has 320 pages, where its split up between the final fantasy's, 7 is up till page 119, FF8 has the lower end of the three, till page till 189... typical square move, anyways 9 has the most till 315. Check out other peoples opinion to learn more.

Book 3: This one has 5 main title covered with each their own coverage ratio, to elaborate the book is 336 pages, where final fantasy 10 has roughly 100 pages, FF11 50, FF12 75, FF13 80 and FF14 a mere 20, which has the short end of the stick. Check out other peoples opinion to learn more.

Should it be in your Collection? Well it depends... (assuming you like Final Fantasy)

The general Artbook Lover: Mostly Yes, There are a lot of FInal fantasy's, and thus a lot off different styles, the collection itself is great to have.

The Hardcore FF Fan: Yes, the book offer cool insights in character relationships, memorable moments and cool little neat design choices - Next to the awesome art! But remember most info can be found on the internet these days.

The artist (draw/write): If you get inspired by this franchise and artbooks, Yes you should. Because the classical job system is represented as well, as Yoshitaka Amano's art! If you Don't get inspired..... then no :)

I am curious what you think of the book? I really enjoy them - But I grew up with FF7 when I was a kid so quite easy to please with this series :).

If you enjoy art book reviews, join the videogame_artbook sub reddit and discuss!

RPG Battle 52 - A battle arena where the player fights multiple well known RPG protagonists

The story starts off with Cosmos who focuses on 1 game, Battle 52. He is so good at it that he holds the world record, until he was asked to join this new tournament with the top players.

This is an interactive fan made animation project to shed new light on all the cool video games i played (or know about) to purely entertain similar fans of the RPG genre. You can decide Cosmos his next opponent and if you comment in the video there is a chance you will be in the animation live chat!

In this case he is up against Cloud from Final Fantasy 7! Check it out!

Manga girl - Secrets to improve you drawing skills

Using fine liner, watercolor pen and or paint really puts you out of the comfort zone, especially compared to using tools such as pencil, charcoal, pastel or even oil paint. Why? the damage of the first group is non - erasable, we have to actively mitigate the collateral damage, the other group is not ''perfectly erasable'' as well - because all will have some smears depending on how you applied it and what things you used. Non erasable tools shine in helping you be more intuitive of solving drawing problems, ratio judgment of sizes and placement, stroke confidence such as hair and eye flow and many more.

In this case I draw Kosmos from Xenosaga in 45 minutes: Try drawing something similair like this, only if your a beginner I suggest starting with small drawings. This way you will improve your sketching and leverage these ideas, tips and secrets into your advantage. Video on this topic below.

Shadows on the Azure - Scene 3: Ambush - Visual Audio Novel

Dhaos and Nephenee are sheltering in a cave, however Dhaos intends to explore it further as the atmosphere and location reminded him of something he read in the past.

Part 3 is uploaded on Youtube, part 4 will have to wait for a while as I am going on vacation and working on another project which will be really awesome! I learned a lot already from working on SotA, which I will take along in future videos. Hope you will look forward to them as I do!

Charity artwork Catshelter

Never heard of Catshelter? well I cant blame you but its basically a charity organization helping homeless kittens and adult cats, aiding protection, care, treatment and try to find a new suitable home for them. They are planning an internet art auction event for the 11th time starting at Friday 4th of October 2019 on -you guessed it - worlds animal day.

This is the 4th time I am participating in this fun event to raise money for this great initiative and this time I wanted to create painting of three wild cats: a tiger, lion and jaguar.

If you're curious how they were made then I have speed paint video for you as well, check it out!

I will provide another blog post with the link when its live!


Shadows on the Azure - Scene 2: Conflict - Visual Audio Novel

Scene 2 is uploaded now on YouTube, this time almost double the video length of scene 1, with more art and - of course - plot progression. I write this story as I go along and currently have rough ideas about scene 3 and 4 - which I am looking forward to work on! (writing, drawing, voicing and editing)

Anyways if you already have seen part 1 and it made you curious what happens in the next scene, check out part 2, I am sure you will enjoy this one as well!

By the way, this site was made by Stefany from Stefany web design, a talented programmer who is creative and hardworking. I am honestly really glad to have the site which I originally imagined (I literally drew it out in PowerPoint). For me was the most important part to upload pictures, write a blog and embed videos with ease with fast/efficient website response. One of the important things for me was that the site was built by someone else and not by a cheap ''website creator'' which had to be done by myself (as I don't want to spent my precious time on something like this). Working with Stefany was laid back and most of the cool suggestions came from her, with the neat details and color pallets.

You don't want to make a cheap website yourself and Interested in a talented website programmer who put her heart and soul in creating a website for your specific purposes? check out her website:

​Shadows on the Azure - Scene 1: Tension - Free Visual Audio Novel

Shadows of the Azure is a free visual audio E-book which can be watched in multiple parts on YouTube. The book main spirit is an big adventure, however there are some troubling issues which needs to be solved between the two siblings - named Dhaos and Nephenee. The book will definitely be welcomed by people who like fantasy, dragon and are fan of games such as Shadow of the colossus and Drakengard.

The front cover captures the title, a shadow in the sky, however there are more of them...

The frequency of uploading is not known yet, but I try to post new videos at least once in two months. The main time consuming moment is the editing (of the story, voice acting and video text + animation). However the project is immensely fun and I love to have full control over it.... even though talking for Dhaos feels natural, but for Nephenee totally isn't....

Check out the first part and leave a comment or a like if you enjoyed!

Origyn: Dicing With Demons Act 1 - 3

Prologue: Beginning
Act 1: Heroes of prophecy.

Alexus glanced everyone in the eyes before they entered: *Ok, forget that stupid nick name, this time I will keep them alive*. Subsequently she spoke with a deep voice: ‘’Guys, be prepared for the worst. No holding back on this one, when summoned it will go beserk’’. The group who are known as the heroes of prophecy, a chosen team destined to free the world Septhun from the tyranny emperor Kashmagal, entered the chamber where the origyn named Azyin slumbers. They went through two heavy large doors and were welcomed by a pulsating bright light emitted from a big transparent monolith twice their size. It was located in the back end of the room. Alexus, an elite female knight with blonde hair, carrying a sword and shield: ‘’Is it me or did the temperature drop suddenly?’’. Carotte, a high ranked female summoner from the kingdom of Ohn, carrying a staff engrafted with magic emeralds: ‘’I sense a strong anomalistic power from it… which gives me even more goose bumps than this freezing cold’’. Suddenly multiple torches were ignited and both heavy doors were shut automatically behind them, as if the room knew visitors had entered and did not want them to leave. Bendry, a talented male healer with red hair and good physique, carrying a hammer: ‘’Ok, I know we have done this before but… THIS is freaking me out’’. Dradon, one of the most respected male mages of Ohn, with long black hair carrying a wizard staff and hat: ‘’Bendry, stay professional. Remember the power of an origyn always decreases immensely when they are summoned, so don’t worry about it’’. Alexus: ‘’Dradon, cast entanglement magic before it moves’’. Dradon smiled: ‘’Yes you don’t have to tell me that’’. Carotte’s heart beated rapidly: *Not now, concentrate!*. She tried to calm herself by pushing out a big sigh and said: ‘’Ok… are we ready?’’. Everyone nodded simultaneously. Carotte closed her eyes and with her left hand held her summoners rod horizontal in front of her while mumbling with two stretched fingers near her mouth: ‘’Azyin’ri origyni commeth forth and submit they to my soul, as of now thou areth my servant and willeth aid me in battle whenever I demanded thou’’. After five seconds of ghostly silence in the room, the monolith went totally dark. Bendry: ‘’Ehm, this is a bit different than normal’’. The light pulsated again, in rhythm with a low heavy sound similar to a beating heart. Bendry: ‘’Ok, now this is really freaking me out’’. Alexus: ‘’Stay focused, don’t let this abnormality work on your fear. Remember, the king specifically asked this specimen to be used against the emperor’’. The pulse became more rapid, as if a heart was stimulated by anxiety. The four heroes were so concentrated for what was to come in this heavy unknown atmosphere, their bodies automatically switched into fighting positions preparing them for any form of threat that could jump out from the light. However, the monolith increased the intensity and bursted into multiple pieces. It made a heavy shattering noise, as large glass like stones crumbled and fell on the ground. Alexus: ‘’It’s out of its cage, Carotte cast identify magic to get a grasp on its elemental weakness’’. Carotte immediately casted the spell resulting in magic circles that emitted light, which appeared on the floor below her. In the meantime, the origyn named Azyin fell out of his prison on the floor like a hollow puppet. It had the form of a male human with short black hair, already fully dressed in clothing. He slowly stood up, as if suddenly a soulless human was brought back to life. Azyin was standing with a neutral expression looking straight into the eyes of Carotte, the one who he should obey to. However, the urge for freedom surged through his body, as if he knew that the only way out of slavery was to kill those who have summoned him. Carotte her spell was finished: ‘’Be careful! He is strong and has darkn-, EH?’’. Azyin moved with high acceleration towards Carotte trying to grab her head with his fully extended right hand. However, right before contact Alexus quickly reacted and body slammed him with all her might away from Carotte in to the ground. He quickly jumped up on his feet and mumbled: ‘’Gungnir’’. Subsequently a white light emitted in his right hand and materialized in the form of a long spear. Azyin raised his left hand and an immense dark aura was surrounding him, as if he was ready to strike again. Alexus: ‘’DRADON!’’. Dradon who did not expect this quick turn of events, barely responded to Alexus by casting his spell: ‘’So- sorry!! I… Entangleja!’’. The ground under Azyin was shaking while large roots burst out of the floor grabbing him tightly, immobilizing him. Alexus rushed forward: ‘’Everyone! attack him NOW!’’. Right at that moment, Bendry casted a protective spell on Alexus and both the summoner and mage were casting a fire spell. However the second before Alexus her sword could hit Azyin, he broke out of the roots while parrying the attack with his own spear. Alexus tried to hit him with a second strike, focusing on his left leg. He repelled with the point of his spear, leaving her position half open. In that instance Azyin slightly stepped back and attacked with a devastating blow with the back end of his pole arm at her right sided neck area, trying to bash open her shoulder pad. Luckily Alexus barely managed to block some of the force by skilfully using her shield combined with the protective spell, reducing the damage. Both fire spells were casted, one was a minor sphere like homing missile locked on to Azyin and the other was a fierce fire circle fully emitting out of the ground. Despite their efforts, Azyin acrobatically dodged the ground attack by jumping away. However he was hit by one of the fire spheres, leaving a burned spot on his left arm. Alexus: ‘’Good! Keep this up, lets push him in the corner!’’. The group skilfully corned Azyin in the left upper corner of the room, by using a multiple fire walls, with Alexus in front and the rest positioned at a small distance behind her. Azyin said with a slight smile: ‘’Interesting, you humans have a decent fighting spirit, however it’s not over yet. Charming knight, dare to duel?’’. Alexus responded with a serious expression: ‘’I won’t be provoked by your words, Dradon entrap him again, Carotte use submission, Ben--‘’. Alexus was interrupted as Azyin accelerated by running and jumping high in the air with his spear pointed towards her. Alexus quickly prepared her defensive position through aiming her sword and shield towards him, readying for impact. Nevertheless, Azyin feigned a body slam and immediately used this opportunity to skilfully repel her sword while using the shield as a stepping stone. This let him land near Bendry. Bendry was petrified, as he never expected this turn of events. Azyin immediately pushed his right-hand palm in Bendry’s face and grabbed his head tightly. Azyin smiled slightly and said: ‘’Breakja’’. All of Bendry his muscles relaxed immediately. His pupils went upwards in his skull and all his organs stopped abruptly, leaving him with a soulless expression on his face. Azyin threw Bendry his lifeless body to the side and made a full throttled sprint towards Carotte. Carotte: ‘’BEN—UGHH’’. Before the heroes could physically react to the situation, Azyin pierced Carotte her chest with his spear and immediately turned his face towards Dradon. While Carotte was crippling in pain, Dradon his muscles staggered by Azyin his sharp stare. As it felt as if he was looking in the eyes of a demon that was enjoying killing all his friends, with himself next in line. Even though quite in shock, Dradon still could focus on his entanglement spell which was almost finished. Nonetheless, Azyin had a slight crazy expression on his face and rushed towards Dradon with full force. Despite his efforts, Alexus intervened again with another full body slam, this time dislocating his left arm and smacking him in to the ground. This additional time leaved Azyin to be entangled by Dradon his spell. Alexus: ‘’Dirty son of a bitch, what did you do to Bendry!?’’. Azyin: ‘’Hehe… release me and I will tell you’’. Alexus sprinted towards the entangled Azyin: ‘’As if!’’. Her sword pierced through Azyin his intestines, causing him to bleed intensively and coughing up blood. Carotte, who experienced painful stings due to the spear strike and was resting on one leg while using her staff as balancing support, used all her remaining energy to finish her casting spell: ‘’It’s over Azyin, you are now the slave of humanity’’. She held her left fist in front of her which had an emerald ring attached to her index finger. The ring emitted a light blue glow and she screamed: ‘’SUBMISJA!’’. A light radiated from the ring in sync with Azyin his body. He slowly disintegrated into thin air as he lacked the strength and concentration to resist the spell. He smiled and said: ‘’If I get the chance…’’. Alexus responded right before he was gone: ’’If’’. Carotte had just successfully captured Azyin in the summoning ring, a ring designed to enslave origyns, which could be used for any sort of activity as the master demanded. While Carotte was coughing heavily: ‘’It’s over... I can’t believe he killed Bendy’’. Alexus put her hand on Carotte’s shoulder: ‘’Carotte are you ok? Sorry it was my mistake that Bendy was killed’’. Dradon: ‘’No... don’t say that. We all are responsible. Such things are… inevitable’’. Alexus, who actually felt it was her fault, tried to push her emotions away and acted professional at the situation at hand: ‘’Carotte take this, a healing potion which will stop the bleeding and pain. However, we need to get you to a real healer ASAP. Dradon when can we teleport out of here?’’. Dradon: ‘’Well, it seems like teleportation magic is sealed in this dungeon, so if we get out of here we should be fine’’. Alexus: ‘’Great, lets carry Bendry together. Carotte you can lean on my shoulder if you have a hard time walking’’. Carotte her pain slowly faded away: ‘’Hehe... thanks I think I’ll be fine for the time being, the potion really energizes, but let’s hope we don’t get into any leftover monster encounters’’. Alexus: ’’I don’t think we will, we did a great job clearing these ruins... let’s go’’. The heroes, now existing out of three group members, were travelling out of Azyin Origyni’s lair in to the cold night, carrying the fourth member with them. Outside Carotte let out a big sight: ‘’That place was so dark and depressing’’. Dradon: ‘’Yeah good thing you have light whisp magic, otherwise navigation would be tough’’. Dradon casted his teleporting magic, which was synced to a huge ancient teleportation crystal in the capital city of Ohn. Dradon: ‘’Let’s go home guys... teleportja’’. A large circular portal surrounded them and in a blink of an eye the heroes were gone, leaving the desolated dungeon behind.

Act 2: The queen of odds.

The world of Septhun exists out of one large continent, which contain four major kingdoms. One of them is the kingdom of Ohn, located in the south, which is the largest in size with the highest population count who rage war against the kingdom of Zeph. The emperor of Zeph, named Kashmghal, is portrayed as a tyrant by the surrounding kingdoms. The kingdom is located in the north west and is known for extensive invasion of territory with their mixture of humans and demi-humans alike, enslaving all that comes onto their path. A kingdom with an opposite reputation is Arc, a neutral area located in the east, which welcome all humans and demi-humans who want to avoid conflict. The fourth kingdom is called Enclave, an immensely powerful country of giants located in the north east, who has a trading bond with Ohn and Arc. Besides their influences, Septhun still has independent neutral villages spread over the world with some located on islands or other isolated areas. Unfortunately, most of them have a difficult time keeping their independency in the current conflicts.

When the group teleported back to the capital city of Ohn, a large city with surrounded by high walls and towers with a immense castle in the center, they immediate got aid from the royal guard. Carotte was sent to the royal guards infirmary while a proper funeral for Bendry was arranged. The next day after their mission report inside the castle, they were invited by the king for a strategy meeting. Alexus was quite nervous, as she was not sure what to expect from the content and especially after what happened with Bendry: ‘’Thank you for inviting us in this meeting, your majesty the king’’. King Herald: ‘’Stand down heroes, no need for formalities. Again I am delighted that you accomplished the mission with such a success’’. Alexus was a bit surprised by these words as he didn’t mention Bendry’s death, however did not dare to ask further. However, Dradon did not hesitate: ‘’Excuse us for the failed attempt to save Bendry in the process’’. King Herald glanced at Dradon with his left eyebrow raised: ‘’To be clear the goal was to obtain the specimen, correct? Unexpected casualties are prone to happen on such dangerous missions, be aware that the upcoming battles will be more intense’’. Field marshal Hendrick: ‘’Correct, I would like to explain the upcoming mission. Please look at the map’’. Dradon nodded and looked at the detailed world map with small battalion pieces placed throughout. Septhun’s map resided on a table in the middle of the room, which was medium in size and had a lot of war paintings on the walls. The field marshal re-ordered some of the battalion pieces why the three heroes and the king were observing with high concentration. King Herald pointed his finger to Alexus: ‘’Oh yes before we start. I would like to introduce three new heroes, Tina, Biggs and Art which will support you on your next mission’’. Hendrick knocked on the door: ‘’Guard! Tina, Biggs and Art are summoned, please let them enter immediately’’. The three new heroes stepped through the door opening. Tina and Biggs both had the sage profession. Magic users with healing, offensive and supporting ability’s which could significantly enhance the power of others. In Alexus point of view Tina seemed like a nice but serious person and Biggs was a mysterious silent individual. Art however, was a large muscular sword master with two heavy swords carrying on his back. Alexus: *Ok, it seems like they are all between twenty- and thirty-five. I wonder how experienced they are*. Herald smiled: ‘’Look at that, the new heroes of prophecy are formed! Alexus you are still in command’’. Alexus glanced at the three warriors and then back to Herald: *Hmm. I knew the heroes of prophecy is just propaganda to get all the civilians support the king to rage war on Zeph, however replacing us so easily doesn’t feel right*.

Alexus had fought many battles in the name of king Herald, she was trained at the starting age of four by her father who was a high ranked commander and war hero in the kingdom of Ohn. She fought a lot during the black years, a period where Septhun was terrorized by demons who attacked villages and citys, which was campaigned as the cause of emperor Kashmaghal. Even though she is currently thirty, she is planning to leave the force after the emperor is defeated.

Despite Alexus her uncomfortable feeling of the replacements, she shrugged it off and focused on the large world map. Field marshal Hendrick asked if they could proceed and after the sign from the king he started to explain the current situation. Hendrick: ‘’As I discussed with my subordinates this morning, we currently think that Kashmaghal is planning to cut us off from Arc and Enclave, based on our scout reports. His army is marching south east and will probably try to block off our trade routes, while simultaneously capturing the tower of Babel. Likely to make sure we cannot trade with both kingdoms while taking the library’’. Alexus: ‘’Why this decision? Doesn’t that provoke the other kingdoms as well? Babel tower is not active in at least five-hundred years. Besides, his army is getting thinned out if he does both’’. Hendrick: ‘’That is correct. However like I said, we think he aims for the library which could potentially be activated earlier than we expected.’’ Dradon: ‘’I don’t understand, how can the library be active?’’ Hendrick: ‘’Even though the library resides in the tower, it is out of sync with overseer chamber which should be deactivated for at least five-hundred years’’. Dradon: ‘’So basically you are saying if active, they still can get information on the legendary spell locations but can’t activate the tower itself?’’. Hendrick nodded and replaced the battalion pieces on the map: ‘’In addition his army is growing as we speak, so attacking him won’t be an easy task what’s so ever. Which leads to two options. First, we could sweep around Zeph’s army while they try to take the tower, pincering them from multiple sides and cutting the main army off from the keep. Especially if the other kingdoms will assist us as well’’. King Herald: ‘’I rather finish him off for good than dragging out this war, besides convincing them to assist in a pre-emptive strike could be a hassle’’. Hendrick: ‘’Yes, well the other proposal is to attack Zeph’s citadel directly by sailing to the north west. Currently Zeph’s army is immensely diluted and our navy is large enough to transport the main proportion of our units to overtake them’’. Alexus: ‘’Ok, but how are we going to deal with their earth dragon? Will we just storm in with a frontal attack? What if we don’t succeed? Then Kashmaghal will have the legendary spell locations as well.’’ King Herald: ‘’Good points, however don’t forger we have twenty-five origyns ready to fight. Especially with our origyn infusion program progressing smoothly we are unstoppable. How many does that necromancer have? Three?’’. Hendrick: ‘’Indeed, Kashmaghal has currently three origyns as far as we know. About your points Alexus, our origyns combined with the infusion program will make us deal with that earth dragon. And the idea was indeed to bust into the citadel directly’’. Alexus: ‘’Sorry I never heard of this infusion program, how powerful is it?’’. Herald nodded to Hendrick: ‘’Give the short summary’’. Hendrick glanced at all the heroes: ‘’Currently we created enchanting gem stones, Carotte will certainly be using one, which immensely boosts the summoned origyn. Together with the sages their mana channelling spells we can immensely strengthen the summoners and thus the origyns power’’. Carotte looked surprised, getting goosebumps all over. Alexus: ‘’That sounds… immense… is it safe and controllable?’’. Hendrick: ‘’We did not use it in a real battle… yet. However, we did intensive testing. Especially the origyn named Okya will be a useful tool with his railgun. For example, blasting the gates or shoot that damned dragon. Despite the user’s mana will be intensely drained even with channelers, we only need two shots’’. King Herald: ‘’Good, lets park the small details. Before I choose the second option, I want the general advantages and disadvantages for both plans’’. Hendrick: ’’Attacking the center will cripple the emperor’s army while he won’t be able to use the library, the disadvantage is that this is a logical move so he will expect this. Basically, there is a chance he has something else up his sleeve. The direct confrontation on his keep is unpredictable and the other kingdoms could lay pressure on Babel tower instead. Unfortunately, this is an extremely risky move. Especially as his keep is greatly fortified and we can’t resupply reenforcements, isolating a large proportion of our army’’. King Herald: ‘’I prefer the direct attack on the citadel, rather all or nothing than dragging this thing out. I am confident we have the upper hand and I don’t want to find out what this necromancer has prepared for us at Babel tower, any final thoughts on my decision?’’. Everyone nodded in agreement except for Dradon: ‘’Excuse me, but I haven’t seen any form of the power executed by the enhancing stone. Let alone Okya with his so called railgun… is he already in its full power ‘ri Origyni form? And what role do we play in this mission? Which Origyn will Carotte summon?’’. Tina the new team member responded: ‘’Biggs and I both have seen the power of Okya, yes he is in ‘ri Origyni form... it is immense. Don’t worry about that part’’. King Herald glanced at Hendrick, assuming he figured out the role of the heroes already. Hendrick nodded: ‘’Great questions. Let’s continue to the second half of this meeting, your role in this direct attack. When the navy fleet is boarding south of the citadel, we will immediately go into action. We are certain Zeph’s scouts will have noticed us days before. Despite this, the main bulk of the army will spearhead towards the citadel and let Okya attack the gate together with another origyn summoning team. Your team will go through the gate together with the frontal army, you will need to push to the throne room to confront Kashmagal. Both Tina and Biggs will enhance Carotte her power, together with the enchanting gem that will synchronize with Azyin will be en-’’. Alexus interrupted with an irritated expression: ‘’Azyin!? What he did to Bendry… and he isn’t even in full form yet!’’. King Herald: ‘’Exactly what he did to Bendry, he is a demon in close quarter battle. And Alexus, keep your emotions detached from a past event. You of all people should know it’s natural they go berserk after release, leading to casualties’’.

Alexus knew what the king meant, as she captured many origyns in the past. Tough battles leading to many casualties under her wing. Nevertheless, she is a perfectionist and cares about her teammate’s wellbeing. In addition, she understood the advantage of using a non-full powered Origyn is their human form. As the small size is most effective to kill in close quarters, ensuring and confirming the defeat of the emperor.

After Alexus calmed her inner self: ‘’Yes. I won’t mention it again, please continue’’. Hendrick: ‘’Taking down the emperor will not be an easy feat. But when an origyn is enhanced with so much power, you heroes should be able to pull it off. Remember the emperor does not know about our trump card’’. Dradon nodded with a smile: ‘’Yes, I like this. I still don’t know how we are going to survive the infiltration on his keep, as I don’t think he will be alone in his throne room after he noticed we are at his gate’’. Hendrick: ‘’Correct, however we sent elite squads upfront to clear the way. As far as we can tell this mission is certainly do-able’’. King Herald: ‘’This sounds like a realistic but extremely risky move. I agree with Dradon, I like this! Alexus can you pull off your end of the part?’’. Alexus glanced quickly at each team member and stopped at Carotte who nodded positively: ‘’Yes, we can and will succeed’’. Hendrick: ‘’Great, I will inform the commanders. King Herald please join us for a short meeting as we will need to enclose some details about the origyns used, number of troops and moment of departure, etcetera’’. Herald let out a faint sigh and nodded.

Outside of the strategy room, Alexus and all the heroes had a small discussion in the castle’s hallway, right after both new and old members introduced themselves with their name, age and rank. Alexus tried to relief the mood: ‘’That was a quite demanding meeting, glad it’s over’’. Carotte let out a sigh: ‘’Yes, that it was indeed. A new heavy burden rest on our shoulders. Tina and Biggs, because the weather is nice and we still have some time, I would like to practice this channelling skill with you both before we departure’’. Biggs: ‘’Good idea, let’s not choke when it counts’’. Tina agreed as well. Alexus glanced at Art: ‘’Ok so shall we have a sparring session then?’’. Art grinned: ‘’That’s a good idea general, however I won’t hold back. But you can use Dradon to your aid, if you want’’. Alexus responded playfully: ‘’Hahaha well I think he would be more useful on your side’’. Both were chippering and laughing to increase their ego over the other at the cost of Dradon. After listening for two minutes, Dradon put his hand in his face and thought for a second that he was teaming up with idiots. However, he was quickly reminded by his last fight: *At least she is serious when the situation asks for it*.

After a successful sparring session, Art met one of his old colleagues from the front. Colleague: ‘’Really!? The behemoth slayer Art is here as well!? What’s up my friend?’’. Art smiled: ‘’Wilson the giant! You know me, always in for action! How are you my man?’’. Wilson: ‘’Doing great as usual, serving under general Ike and you?’’. Art: ‘’Nice! Yeah I am serving under general Alexus, really beautiful woman with excellent sword fighting skills. She and I ju-’’. Wilson interrupted: ‘’THE queen of odds!? Man, you are crazy. But that means you’re a big shot now huh, being a hero and all’’. Art looked at him but didn’t know how to respond: ‘’Yeah… hehe… a hero of prophecy sounds nice, but what do you mean with the queen of odds? Alexus her nickname?’’. Wilson: ‘’Yeah bud. People call her that because she’s a daddy’s girl, her father being Nash Vanadis and all. People say he pulled the strings for the higher ups to give his daughter all the perks with promotions.’’. Art: ‘’That’s not uncommon, so they gave her a nickname for being the daughter of a hero?’’. Wilson: ‘’People get jealous all the time man. But the main point is, it is weird she is still in the force. She is known for playing dice with the devil. The high-risk high-reward kinda gal, making daring decisions during the strategists play off tournaments’’. Art frowned: ‘’So? With no risk you can’t win, that doesn’t necessarily make her a bad commander’’. Wilson: ‘’Ok bad example, the thing is… in the force the chance of dying under her command is roughly fifty percent while she escapes it herself’’. Art: ‘’Who is saying this stuff? I never heard of this? And we are soldiers right, we should be happy to die for our country’’. Wilson: ‘’I hear a lot of rumours like this from fellow soldiers. Stories about her getting great recommendations during her training days about combat theory, however her whole team being wiped out after her first mission with only her coming back. It seems that at every subsequentially mission at least one team member died under her command because of her judgments. But the higher ups pretend they don’t see this. Probably because of her dad… and they claim that her mission was successful as she was accomplishing her main tasks’’. Art eyes widened: ‘’I can’t believe this, are you sure this is true? I mean she has one of the toughest jobs being the leader of the heroes of prophecy and she does get the job done. However, having such negative loaded nickname is a bi-’’. Wilson interrupted: ‘’Don’t get me wrong bud, I don’t have any personal hate towards her. But honestly, I’d stick with Ike rather than the queen of odds. As I don’t want to play dice against death with such a disadvantage while she escapes it’’. Art: ‘’I’ll take my chances. I have sparred with her and lost, so I respect her and think she is a genuine woman with a beautiful smile’’. Wilson laughed: ‘’Bud! You just fell in love! Maybe that’s why most of her comrades are all male! They would die for their beloved queen! But honestly, good luck bud. I really want to drink a beer with you after the next big mission’’. Both departed after some small talk. Art: ‘’Queen of odds huh, I’ll beat them together with her!’’.

Act 3: Attack on the citadel

The infiltration mission started early in the morning as the ships were approaching Zeph’s beaches which were not yet visible due to the sun shining barely above the misty horizon paired with the cold temperature. The navy fleet consisted out of hundred-sixty war ships who were sailing for eight days with the larger ships in the middle and the smaller on the outside in a diamond formation. The ships transported multiple summoner teams, a large variety of siege weapons and thousands of soldiers ready to storm the capital city. Alexus her team’s ship was positioned in the back row behind the frontal units who acted as the first wave in the upcoming battle.

Alexus started the day full of energy: ‘’Good morning Carotte, are you fully prepared? We should be on the coast soon, from there on we will need to go full throttle towards the citadel’’. Carotte was a bit nervous: ‘’Good morning Alexus, well… yes and no… I have all my equipment ready and I am quite in high spirits, however I do have this feeling we are being watched. I mean, he knows we are here already’’. Art just walked on the deck and overheard the conversation: ’’Goodmornin ye all! A fine day eh lads? Let the necromancer walk the plank today eh?’’. Carotte gave a short giggle. Alexus: ‘’Very smooth Art. But please, quit the pirate act’’. Art: ‘’Alrighty mate! Don’t worry Carotte, I promise that I will take his head with both my swords’’. Alexus nodded with a smile, agreeing with Art his liveliness: ”Are Dradon and Biggs awake yet?’’. Art: ‘’I don’t know, but I don’t think so. At least in Dradon’s case he didn’t sleep well these past days’’. Tina joined the group in high spirits as well: ‘’Good mor-‘’. Suddenly a heavy pitched screech was heard from afar. Everybody on deck was confused, some of the men yelled and pointed towards the north. They heard the alarm signal. Alexus: ‘’Was that an animal?’’. After five seconds they felt an immense shockwave coming from a huge explosion in the direction of the ships in front, crippling multiple ships to pieces while they burned heavily. Subsequently a large body of water was rising towards their direction. Before they expected it, the battle had begun and was brought towards them. Alexus quickly grabbed Carotte pulling her towards the nearest ropes which she held tightly with her other hand: ‘’Everybody hang on!’’. Large bodies of water flooded the ships deck. Soon after, the group heard another monster like battle cry and saw that a huge origyn was summoned. A small shock of surprise went through Alexus her spine when she observed the enormous entity in front of her.

The origyn was as big as five stories while being airborne above the water. It had a shape of a dragon with four wings and floated with a vertical posture with a dark brown colour pattern on its scales. Common folk would describe it as a demon, as it had red glowing eyes and monstrous fangs.

White visible energy started to flow towards its mouth. After it charged for five seconds, a strong force pushed Alexus her body away. She saw a huge intensified spiralling beam directed at something in the horizon. A second after the blast connected, which sounded like a heavy explosion combined with uprising waves, a painful heavy pitched screech was heard. Alexus: ‘’Isn’t that the earth dragon?’’. Carotte: ‘’Probably… and they used Okya to repel it, such power’’. Luckily the earth dragon had fled and the navy was preparing for the skirmish ahead. As the first wave would reach the coast in less than an hour, all team members were preparing their horses and equipment for departure. Carotte: ‘’Alexus, do you think the emperor will welcome us with his navy fleet as well?’’ Alexus: ‘’Good question, but we are prepared for such an attack, despite that we don’t have reliable intel on his army size’’.

However, no navy ship from Zeph was observed. After half an hour, the front line reached the coast with a total of hundred sixty ships. As time was essential, the first hundred ships swiftly unloaded their troops. This first wave reached the capital city by marching as a single massive unit through most of the flat lands. The enormous city was surrounded by towering stone walls and defended by multiple battalions of infantry, cavalry and archers. The city stood before a large mountain while above the keep a floating island could be observed, which contained a small castle. However, the frontal army did bring relatively small mobile battering rams and trebuchets, which are close and long ranged wall breaking siege weapons, to aid infiltrating the city. While the battle had already started Alexus her team were advancing, however with a delay of approximately three hours due to being in the second wave which had some trouble unloading their ships.

While riding her horse, Alexus heard a lot of noise in the distance: *I really want to know the current status, we have to move faster!*. Alexus: ‘’We are almost there! just over the hill!’’. When she reached the top, Alexus had a good overview of the battlefield which was clearly visible as the sun was fully shining on the landscape. She was surprised: *Did they advance that fast? What a slaughter fest... that insane tall gate has been fully breached, they must have focused all the siege weapons and origyns on it. Is the army already at the keep?‘’. She was a bit nauseous as the smell of fresh blood was overwhelming. Alexus: ‘’Make haste, through the gate!’’. Carotte and Dradon were a bit hesitant due to the immense screams which were heard from the burning city. Carotte: *So many dead humans and demi-humans… I wonder how many origyns the king departed for this mission?*. Art, Biggs and Tina were calm due to their multiple large-scale battle experiences. The team rushed past the main gate, ignoring the infrequent close quarter fights near the main road. They went straight into the towns square which was already captured. Alexus: ‘’Soldier what’s the status report?’’. The soldier saluted Alexus: ‘’General, the Zeph army retreated earlier than expected which led to a swift siege battle, currently our frontal army is to the north near the castle’’. Alexus: ‘’Well done soldier, stay alive! Everyone let’s stay on the main road and don’t stop till we re-join the elite squad at the keep!’’. Dradon was feeling uncomfortable and not fully focused due to the lack of sleep: *Great, at least Alexus is on fire today. I must keep up the pace as well!’’. After fifteen minutes the team re-joined the frontal army which were stuck at the multi-parted gated bridge, connecting to the ground castle. The battle consisted mainly fighting with long ranged weapons shooting over the moat. Carotte felt her heart beating faster: *Ugh.. there is so much pressure on me right now, I am prohibited to make any errors summoning Azyin when we face him. I wish that I could be as focussed and confident as Alexus*. Alexus saluted the field marshal: ‘’Greetings marshal Hendrick, how is the current situation unfolding?’’. Hendrick saluted back: ‘’General Alexus! Great that you have finally arrived! Smooth thus far, we need to wait for the mana recharge of the Okya summoner to breach the final gate’’. Alexus: ‘’He over extended?’’. Hendrick: ‘’Yes, that thing already fired three shots today. We plan to summon Ruya to cross the water, that massive water lizard can transport twenty men at a fast pace’’. Alexus: ‘’Interesting, when will we border this origyn?’’ Hendrick: ‘’Good question. I think you should departure after the first and second elite squads, so roughly sixty men, let them clear the path for you’’. Alexus:‘’Sounds like a plan. I’ll go talk to their general, thank you Hendrick’’. Alexus informed her team to wait for her in a safe zone and immediately went saluting general Ike. Ike: ‘’Greetings queen of odds! Are you ready for the final battle?’’. They knew each other for a long time, as they were matched rivals during their military training sessions when they were sixteen. Alexus: ‘’Ike, please, not now’’. Ike smiled: ‘’Sorry, I did not mean it in the negative way’’. Alexus rolled her eyes and after a quick update she questioned: “I wonder if Kashmagal dwells in this keep or in that floating castle?’’. Ike: ‘’I am not sure myself, you would think necromancers like to be underground. But my guess would be high in the sky at this point, as he has the option to flee with his damned dragon and pretends he is some supernatural entity’’. Alexus looked a bit troubled: *He has a point. However, I am getting second thoughts on this mission. There is barley any resistance… did he really sent almost everything to Babel tower?*. Alexus: ‘’Honestly, do you think the emperor planned a trap? Attacking the capital or ambushing us with an enormous army? Or maybe dropping the island on the city? Or raising the de-’’. Ike laughed heavily out loud: ‘’Bwahaha you think too much! That’s sometimes your flaw Alexus!’’. In a more serious tone: ‘’We prepared for many events... time will tell if we overlooked the situation. And don’t forget, Zephs army is at Babel tower. Unless he has a mass infantry teleporting crystal, we won’t be dealing with that’’. Alexus: ‘’Ugh I hope you’re right, lets quickly go over the infiltration of the keep’’.

Both discussed the execution of the infiltration and subsequently Alexus informed her team. The assault proceeded as Okya was re-summoned to blast the massive gate open while Ike’s elite squad was transported over the water to the keep through Ruya, beneath the flurry of arrow exchanges. Ike his team immediately went into combat, swiftly taking care of their enemies and making room for their allies. The heroes also boarded the giant lizard and entered the keep.

While Ike was piercing his sword through a remaining enemy: ‘’Alexus! the first group is further in front, through the main hall and up the stairs which probably end at the throne room’’. Alexus: ‘’ Thanks! Everyone, now it is our turn!’’. Ultimately, the team swiftly ended up in a large underlit feasting hall with a big door at the end. Carotte her hands were shaking and whispered in disbelieve: ‘’What… happened here?’’. Alexus her heart rate increased and gripped her sword and shield tightly: *Calm yourself, let’s not end up like them*. Unlike the rest, Tina was calm: ‘’I detect a strong presence in this room, which probably slaughtered all these men. I suggest waiting on the second team and leave this room immediately’’. Dradon: ‘’ I… totally agree let’s move out ASAP!’’. Dradon turned around and noticed that the door and hallway they just went through, disappeared. Dradon gulped: ‘’Guys... we...’’. As the room was silent they noticed a gobbling sound. Art took out his giant swords: ‘’Something is at ten o’clock, keep your guard up everyone. General... suggestions?’’. Alexus grabbed her sword: ’’Ok, Carotte cast wishpja. Dradon use fire wall on both flanks, Tina and Biggs dual cast enhance protectja on us. Art protect the spellcasters’’. A bright light emitted from Carotte her whisp, lightening up most of the room. Art his eyes instantly focussed on the figure in front of him: ‘’Carful, that’s a ghoul. A nasty disease spreading undead specialized in close combat, unfortunately its quite fast. However, it is weak to fire’’. As the ghoul had a squatting position while feasting, it screeched in a high pitch after observing the bright light and ran to the darkest corner of the room. Alexus smiled in relief: ‘’Lets burn it to the ground. Dradon show me what you’ve got’’. The eyes of the ghoul reflected the light, looking like two shiny white spheres surrounded by darkness. Dradon started casting fire missile magic: ‘’I shall revenge our comrades!’’. However, Dradon felt something warm and sticky around his body, quickly obstructing his limbs, face and mouth from movement: ‘’What in th’’. As Carotte heard those words, she turned towards Dradon’s location, nonetheless he disappeared. With a spooked expression she said: ‘’W-where is Dradon!?’’. Alexus, quickly turned around surprised by the tone: *HUH!? Ok… quickly check if the rest is here’’. Before Alexus could speak, Tina looked up and said calmly: ‘’We have a large white salamander on the ceiling trying to engulf Dradon. Biggs and I will take care of it. Alexus free him when you see an opportunity’’. Art was still concentrating on the ghoul during all the commotion, which was silently looking back. Biggs enhanced Tina her electricity magic which was fired at the salamander, consequently stunning the beast. The salamander loosened up his tongue, which descended Dradon with medium speed towards the floor. Alexus quickly high jumped in the air with her sword behind her back: ‘’Dradon!’’. She sliced through the tongue separating Dradon from the beast, dropping him on the floor. In that instance Carotte tried to warn Art as she saw in a blink of an eye a different tongue shooting with high speed aimed at his arms. Before he could react properly, his right arm got surrounded by a sticky tongue. He immediately tried to react by slashing it free with his left. Despite something else bumped in to him, causing immense pain in his left stomach area. The ghoul was standing next to him trying to bite in his neck after a frontal piercing attack with its claws. Carotte reacted by using an instant healing spell which drained a lot of mana: ’’Regenversja!’’. The spell allowed to quickly restored Arts condition to roughly five seconds ago. Adrenaline rushed through Alexus veins and muscles. With heightened senses she responded quickly by shield bashing the ghoul from Art, intervening the neck bite. However, the tongue pulled with immense power on art his right arm dragging his whole body along the floor towards a black salamander. Alexus quickly stabbed the ghoul through the head and made a sprint to intercept the black salamander its intentions. In the same moment, Biggs was helping Dradon, although alive he was still paralyzed. Tina started casting a slow but highly concentrated magic ice bullet spell, aimed at the still stunned white salamander. Carotte casted enhanced speed on Alexus, who made a short hop in the air and immediately made a slide on the ground. With her sword behind her back she used full force to swiftly cut through the tongue between Art and the salamander. Unsuspectedly the ghoul was still alive and rushed towards the undefended Carotte. Alexus noticed this threat and yelled: ‘’Carotte watch out!’’. She immediately sprinted with all her might towards Carotte: *NO! please not again!*. Carotte kept distance from the ghoul by smashing it with all her muscle power put into her summoner staff. These two extra seconds gave Alexus enough room and momentum to use her whole body to brutally bash in the head of the ghoul. Unfortunately, the white salamander started to move again before Tina could finish her spell by letting itself fall on its four feed. Subsequently in one smooth motion it gave a strong tail whip against Tina, launching her six meters across. Alexus had no time to waste and confronted the white salamander. Carotte was panicked: ‘’S-Shall we summon Azyin!?’’. Alexus: ‘’NO! we need to kill the emperor with it! we are almost there, hang on!’’. Suddenly, both salamanders froze in motion and everyone heard an unknown dominant heavy voice in their head: *I overheard your little quarrel humans, what is this origyn that you speak off?*. Alexus: ‘’K-Kashmagal? Yes… we are here to stop you once and for all!’’. The voice replied: *Bwahaha, silly girl this does not answer my question or sound convincing at all! Uni, Multi and Toti leave the area and let these intruders come through to have a little face to face conversation*. Alexus saw both salamanders leaving into the darkness. However she was cautious about the calling for three names, as she did not see a third enemy aside from the dead ghoul. Suddenly a big door opened at the other end of the room, resulting in a lot of light shining into the room. Carotte healed her colleagues for the upcoming confrontation. Even though everyone was still alive, drained of energy and mana, Alexus tried to encourage them: ‘’Let’s face Kashmagal and end this’’. They walked towards the light stepping into a giant throne room. The heavy doors closing behind them resulted in a strong echo. The heroes were confronted by the demonic necromancer who slaughtered many innocent civilians terrorizing Septhun.

New cover art for Origyn Dicing with Demons

My style has changed in these last few months, from drawing with a large tip towards drawing with a small tip. The difference is immense, as the small tip suits my hand better as I tend draw sketchy with high control. I still do like the original cover as it represents the story a bit better, but do tends to get appearing to crowded. The new cover still represents the story, but misses 2 plot inducing characters and the doodling kingdom in the background. However as the book is an action based graphic novel the new cover suits it perfectly. (left old, right new)

Why drawing helps you overcome failure

Do you remember when you still had fun drawing, creating something you wanted to share with friends or family, but started to dislike it soon after as you recognize the many flaws in your work... leading to frustration and ultimately leaving you with a sense of failing at art? Well... artist always deal with this.... even the best of the best.. it's actually called progression. The thing is, one's skill level and one's perceiving level are seldom in synch, what do I mean with this?

Well lets say you draw a cute puppy, and it looks nice... it has four legs, two ears and eyes and a tail with a happy mouth, everyone can see it's a cute puppy, however the proportions are a bit weird and you start to wonder ''Hmm, I need to focus on the proportions for my next drawing''. In the next three puppy's you improved the proportions to a decent level while still keeping the main fundamentals of a dog, however you start to notice, the mouth is quite simple... the eyes are childish... it has zero shadow... Ok you start to improve all those aspects, now when you focus on that, you start to notice again, the proportions are off and the circle of internal conflict and troubleshooting starts again. In general sense you DO improve after each puppy you draw, especially if you focus on certain aspects, but when you get more experienced in drawing you start to notice similar issues which you worked on, which feels frustrating as you should have fixed it already.

This de-synch in own drawing competence and perceiving can be devastating to most drawing hobbyist as it feels as if you are going in a downwards spiral, however it helps you to cope with and even overcome failure which you can apply on other things as well. So I draw for a while now, always getting the impression... I still need to learn everything even though I improved so much... despite feeling like crap many times. Now I embrace this process and don't feel crap anymore, I know I am crap but I don't ''care'' I only know I can and will improve.

Drawing can be a difficult feat as you are immediately confronted with your skills while every stroke is recorded on paper, however it can be fun if you check your recordings over time and see the progress you made. Cloud I drew in left on 21FEB19 and 11MAY19 right, through developing my art style, drawing every day.

I use this same methodology for tennis. I started 1 year ago, first time tennis ever, I couldn't hit ball and if i hit it... it flew out the tennis court over the fence in the water. But I didn't care and kept having fun as it was the exact same experience as for drawing because with each hour I played i Improved, now I still suck at it, but get compliments on my improvement. I know all the stroke do participate in the club league and am planning to join a tournament, things i wouldn't even dream about 1 year ago, just because the rapid improvement by embracing failures with keeping the ''I know I improve even though it looks like crap'' in thought. This also led me to use youtube videos for tennis, besides joining this regular tennis training group - teaches all around the world are on the internet sharing tips, giving light to different techniques which can be really valuable for such a low amount of time spent. For example, I focused on my racket swinging technique because my teacher highlighted it on youtube I learned technique doesn't Mather if you don't hit the ball at the right time... honestly I learned so much from focusing on the timing, it drastically improved my tennis.

So want to improve in art? I do have some tips which could definitely help you direct or indirectly and more importantly, you can help others in the comments or receive tips from you peers as well.

How, when and why did I start this book?

Originally the book Origyn should have been a video game, called the heroes of prophecy programmed with RPG maker in 2017. I wrote the outline of the story, created character concepts, was busy with sprites, mechanics and made a world map. I had so much fun with this project, I even was planning to make my own music (while I don’t have specific skills in this). However, the whole concept was quite overwhelming. Because of this, my brother suggested to put it down as there were many things I should consider, such as boss mechanics, damage ratio’s, event scripts, beta testers (for glitches and bugs), publishing, etc.

Development pictures: an origyn test team / when they changed in to their enhanced form

I agree with the final fantasy developer Hironobu Sakaguchi: ''I don't think I have what it takes to make a good action game. I think I'm better at telling a story.''

So, I dropped the idea… In 2018 I thought, why not give a try at writing a book… I mean.. the rough story outline was already known. So I began, writing a detailed chapter and act description, important plot points, character flaws as well as development. Interestingly the book has changed quite a bit - for the better -. Initially, I wanted to have 1 protagonist, now I have two. The second one was officially a side character invented to act as a catalyst but grew on me while writing, as the person gives a different perspective. If you plan to read the draft (which I will upload soon), the one you think I am talking about won’t be obvious.